Dear "K",
Today marks one year that we have been on the wait list. We had hoped and prayed we wouldn't see this day, but we knew realistically that we most likely would. I can't help but see every significant day or holiday as hopefully the last one we will experience without you, but time goes on and on and still we wait. One year ago today I was talking a walk around the lake with Ashten in the stroller when our caseworker called and said we were officially on the waitlist. I was so excited and I had no idea the emotions this past year would bring.
We miss you like crazy, sweet girl, and we wonder about you all the time too. Your daddy and I dream about what you will be like. What will your name be? How old will you be? Will you be sick and need medical attention? What will your personality be like? How long will you have had to wait for a family to bring you home?
Today isn't significant to most people, just another hot day in August, but to me, I know we are exactly one year closer to being together as a family. I have learned so much in the last year about trusting completely in God and His perfect timing. It is a hard thing to do for a control freak like myself (don't worry, you'll learn that soon enough when I ask you to clean your room just so - just ask your brothers!!). I have learned that God loves you so, so much and He desires to see you in a family, to have you not be lonely. I have learned that even when it doesn't seem like He is working and moving, even when things look pretty discouraging, He is always working and He will be faithful to finish what He started, He always has a plan and His plan is even better than what I could imagine. I hope one day you will know God personally too.
Your brothers and sister are eagerly waiting for you to come home too. You are such a lucky girl, to have them. They will adore you and treat you like the little princess you are. They like to tell everyone we meet that we are adopting you, they are so proud of it. Ashten, especially, is so excited to have a little sister. She is already setting aside some of her favorite bows, clothes and shoes for you to wear one day.
I will keep praying for you sweetheart, and I will continue to boldly pray that we don't have to wait the "average" wait time to bring you home. I love you, you already have a place in my heart and you always will.
Love,
Your mommy
Today marks one year that we have been on the wait list. We had hoped and prayed we wouldn't see this day, but we knew realistically that we most likely would. I can't help but see every significant day or holiday as hopefully the last one we will experience without you, but time goes on and on and still we wait. One year ago today I was talking a walk around the lake with Ashten in the stroller when our caseworker called and said we were officially on the waitlist. I was so excited and I had no idea the emotions this past year would bring.
We miss you like crazy, sweet girl, and we wonder about you all the time too. Your daddy and I dream about what you will be like. What will your name be? How old will you be? Will you be sick and need medical attention? What will your personality be like? How long will you have had to wait for a family to bring you home?
Today isn't significant to most people, just another hot day in August, but to me, I know we are exactly one year closer to being together as a family. I have learned so much in the last year about trusting completely in God and His perfect timing. It is a hard thing to do for a control freak like myself (don't worry, you'll learn that soon enough when I ask you to clean your room just so - just ask your brothers!!). I have learned that God loves you so, so much and He desires to see you in a family, to have you not be lonely. I have learned that even when it doesn't seem like He is working and moving, even when things look pretty discouraging, He is always working and He will be faithful to finish what He started, He always has a plan and His plan is even better than what I could imagine. I hope one day you will know God personally too.
Your brothers and sister are eagerly waiting for you to come home too. You are such a lucky girl, to have them. They will adore you and treat you like the little princess you are. They like to tell everyone we meet that we are adopting you, they are so proud of it. Ashten, especially, is so excited to have a little sister. She is already setting aside some of her favorite bows, clothes and shoes for you to wear one day.
I will keep praying for you sweetheart, and I will continue to boldly pray that we don't have to wait the "average" wait time to bring you home. I love you, you already have a place in my heart and you always will.
Love,
Your mommy
:) Hugs to you all! Beautifully written.
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